She has a lot of guys to talk to. She has different guys to fall asleep and talk on the phone with. She’s afraid of being alone but rather be alone. No, she doesn’t play around with guys feelings, she tries not to lead guys on. She’ll tell them if she doesn’t have an interest in them like that. Guys keep trying though, they keep trying hard to get her, they want to treat her right, to do her right but she doesn’t feel the same. Feelings can’t be forced, and she doesn’t want to lie. She’s hurt. She fell for a lot of guys, who didn’t feel the same as her or want to commit to only her. She put in effort just like how the other guys put in effort for her on the guy who she never got. She’s hurt, because she once went for a guy who was hurt. She became who he was. Now she is trying to find a guy who would break that cycle. That cycle she been in.